Switched back to blogger.
I'll just keep moving and moving from blogger to onsugar to blogger to onsugar cause I think its fun :)

I'm nuts.
Just feel that onsugar's popularity is way sickening.
K bye, back to my past blog (carousel-oflove) :)

Afiqah and Yours truly.--I'm probably gna switch back to using blogger or quit blogging completely.Well.. I'll consider hard.-Last blogged on tuesday! Lots of updates, if I can remember all :)-Had English Oral on wednesday. Examiner- Mdm Belwit.I was a lil confident before I went into the room b'cos Pq said she's a good and lenient examiner. But I was panicking when I read the passage, I swear. I think she could see that I was totally nervous as there were quite a number of mistakes.So.. I thought I screwed my reading.-Okay. She said my picture discussion was 'V good' - HARD TO BELIEVE.I didn't say a lot as my mind was blank. -Conversation was funny for me. I kept giggling to myself when she asked 'What's your favourite hairstyle?'I said 'Nude hairstyle' and laughed -.--ANYWAY. On friday, Miss Kong told me I did really good for my oral. Then after a while, she told me I had the best score in the class -.-What the heck! Is Mdm Belwit too good or just too good ?!But aye. It won't help much in getting first for overall in any case.-No highlights on thursday. Went home early. I only remember when Pq and I went to the bus interchng .. DAMN, QIANNI IS SO RIGHT. (*#$@!^&#!^&*)-Got back E math common test results on friday. 40/45. Yay! Xtremely happy. Pq was so proud of me. So was I ^^Okay. I'm not bragging or whatever.-And I realised something. When chemistry lessons are held in the science lab, Lover always does this:-Me: *Doing my work/Copying notes/Doing something.Wendy: Meliza !Me: *Turns behind.Wendy: Hot pink ! *Smiles/Both her eyebrows will go up and down.-ALWAYS.
LOL. She knows, I know, Atiqah knows, Qianni knows. Embarrassing I tell you.-Went out yesterday with Xianyun. Shopped but didn't spend much. How silly of me to bring so much cash out -.- In the end I didn't even spend 3/4 of it. After a couple of hours, Pq came over and off the 3 of us went to watch The proposal.-

 

Awesome movie I say, rly hilarious ^^
Went home tgt with love after the movie.

Many movies I'm dying to watch,

• I love you Beth Cooper - NC16 (Screw the rating !)
• Dance flick - NC16 (Bloody rating -.-)
• The ugly truth - 17th Sept
• Phobia 2 - 24th Sept (I scared I will have nightmares and sleepless nights for a month plus, LOL.)
• The blue mansion - 22nd Oct
• New Moon - 3rd Dec (Screw the date.)

 

One of my aunt's family is coming over for dinner tonight. Hope she baked a v nice cake for me :)
I'm sure she has all the time in the world to bake one for me cause she is one v free, rich housewife. Grrr. Jealous -.-
Turning 15 tmr! Cousin sisters invited me over to celebrate my birthday there.
I predict I'm going to have a greaaat time :)

The above:  (Wanling, Yours truly, Shankari, Syafiqah) = ♥

   >>> Atiqah and myself.

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Enjoyed myself v much yesterday :)

School was supposed to be dismissed @ 11:30am but we (Pq and I) left earlier.
Pq's place > Tiong > Pq's place > Vivo
Cut my hair. Gna patiently wait for the fringe to grow longer. Pq's mum did something to my hair yesterday (some new hair style) and I totally liked it. But I have no idea how to style it that way now. Grrrr.
Then off we went to Vivo. Couldn't find what I was planning to buy over there! Was super upset I tell you >:(

Exchanged goodbyes @ 2pm and off I went to meet my ex schoolmates.
Qifa Primary > IMM

Miss Uma couldn't recognise me. But the librarian could! Like what the heck, haha.
Didn't see Ezzul there. Horrible guy he is..
We then camwhored a lil at the roadside like some retards !
Then Shankari left the three of us and off we went to IMM. Then after a short while, Syafiqah left as we didn't want to eat infront of her cos she was fasting.
So, Wanling and I had our lunch at BK. Sort of like an official date after 3 years, like finally.
After our meal, we went to shop and bought an identical anklet each to symbolise our friendship. Pretty pretty :)
Sadly, I had to leave her @ 5pm cos I needed to rush off for Amaths tuition.
But its okay. We'll have our next date soon enough. We actually see each other every Saturday. HAHA.
Anyway, thanks for the card! Was surprised and touched :)

While I was having fun with my friends, my poor boyf was running around the whole of Singapore. (Okay, Im just exaggerating.)
He spent hours just going from shopping centre to shopping centre to look for the thing that we couldn't find at Vivo. And he told me this only after he searched the fourth (I think) shopping centre. In total, he went to 6 shopping centres and finally found it.

Goodness.

I swear I was very, very, very touched.

My heart totally melted. Not literally..
But I was at a loss of words and felt kinda bad at the same time ..
I don't even think a 'Thank you dear' is sincere and enough to really show my appreciation !
No other guy would have done that for me. Its confirmed. I don't think any of my v good friends would have done that for me. Maybe wife would? Idk.

Love him so much. (L)

*Pause.

Plans for today: Movie marathon! But at home. LOL.
Dad gave me some random dvds during the weekend. About 7 of them and I've only watched one on sunday.
So I'm watching probably two or three today and leave the rest for the upcoming sunday.
No time to watch on saturday as I'm going out with Xianyun to celebrate my birthday in advance :) *Happy.

Ciao people ~

You both make me feel useless at times.

Don't know whether I'm feeling angry now or not !
Firstly, Qianni's right. She's a bitch that only copies. Boo.
Secondly, I hate liars v much. Thinking of those lies just makes me mad.

But but !
Behind every single thing that upsets me or drive me up the wall, there's always another piece of news that will cheer me up :)
So. For this one, its the thought of tomorrow! Shopping with Pq and meet up with ex schoolmates :) *Excited.

Have the urge to cut my hair but just afraid that the outcome will disappoint me. How? How??
I think in the end I'll just trim it and it'll appear as if there ain't any difference. Laugh out loud.
Oh ya. Rmb I said something bout going out with Ash last monday to get my birthday gift?
In the end, we wasted our time stopping by at WestCoast Plaza b'cos the Nike outlet store ran out of what I wanted. So, instead, he gave me cash ^^

Anyway before I end off,

Happy birthday Jomains (L)

 

Even when I've got nothing at all and I'm ready to fall,
You're still there for me.

Even when I can't be there for you,
You're never fail to be there.

I know this is love.

10months dear! Haha. Seems so long but its only 10months.
We have a v long way to go. I love you :)


Happy birthday Meilin ! :)
Miss those times when we bitched during Chinese class. HAHA.


Was planning to ditch school today! Cause I had simply no time to study for both Physics and Emath test. But in the end, I still went.
Plus, I reached school at 6:30am! LOL.
Both tests went pretty fine.
Still wondering if I should permanently move to Onsugar after editing..
I think I'm falling sick. Major headache now! >:(

Its not as if I sit up all night thinking why you aren't talking to me.
In any case, we're both a nobody to each other right?
Shouldn't waste my time thinking so much..

Firstly, you're not caramel.
Secondly, I know what a female dog is.
Thirdly, I honestly do not have a problem with you.
Believe it or not, its up to you.
And lastly, I'm not mad at you.

I'm sure you'll be reading this and you know who you are ..

Edited @ 21:00
MISUNDERSTANDING CLEARED :)

You know you know.
Sometimes I feel xtremely bad gossiping but why does it seem so fun >:(
But at least I ain't that horrible. Most of the people I gossip about gossip about me TOO. HAHAHAHA. I have spies and v great people around me that give me tons of information :) But maybe sometimes its better if I don't know cause at times I get rly frustrated and over react ! Gahh.

Anyway, today:
• Slept for the entire Amath lesson. (First time in the whole term.) V shiok :) I love it when I wake up and feel much more alert. Plus OLK was teaching Trigo today. Wasn't that interested plus I had a headache, so yes, I deserved that one hour of rest :)
• Someone popped a qns which made me feel a lil.. Mixed feelings. At the same time, disappointed. Don't ask why. You lied to me. Don't deny.
• Biology test after assembly: Either flunk or borderline. Surprisingly I passed the previous one. HAHA. But full marks for yesterday's online quiz thanks to a classmate :)
• Played volleyball during PE till my hands were freakin' red >:( Anyway thanks QianNi/Ahmala/Tricia.

Yesterday's one and only highlight (I think. Or maybe the only one I choose to rmb.)



• Pinquan surprised me with ^ in the morning. Totally made my day :)
And so I told him not to spend a single cent for our 10th month since he already bought this when it wasn't a special occasion.

I have to say my pink fetish is OVER. This will be the last pink item I love. Can't let another replace it. /: And, Sinyee said she's gna get me an earpiece for my birthday :) :) :)

But.

Mum's still angry at me for shouting at her just now cause i was frustrated.. Guilty :(

OKAY END. Amath common test tmr. Wish me luck !

This was how I felt yesterday when I thought about my life:
Things may actually appear perfect on the outside but its not easy being me.
Yes, it ain't easy. Though people like Pinquan, my family and friends make life better, times when I feel that only I can handle my own problems makes me feel rly helpless. - Now that, is my weakness.

Today:
"Meliza you have NO IDEA how bloody fortunate you are!"
Said the voice inside my head. LOL.
Was reading a friend's blog just now and felt a lil sorry for her. Despite living a hard life, she still approaches life in an optimistic way.
*Envy. What bravery, courage, hope.
Hated myself ttm for a good second for being so mad pessimistic.

"Come on. You have everything in the world. Bloody fortunate girl yet you're still not satisfied? Tsktsk. You must be sick." - Voice in my head again.
I believe that the recent things that happened around me will make me a stronger girl and the bonds between me and those around me will strengthen as well.

Okay, I'm still working on that ^^ .

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Many upcoming tests this week. Then one more week of school to endure (No tests, I hope.) Thenthen, HOLIDAYS. Hope LLE doesn't give so much homework. Likewise for the rest of the teachers.
AM tuition later! Can't wait to meet Xianyun :)

I'm quite happy with life now though some stuff still upsets me.
But.. Awaiting a muchmuch happier me, yay ^^.



Love letter love letter love letter (L)
HAHAHAHA. Ciao ~

The first one happened last week, and now a similar one this week.
How am i suppose to survive this heartbreak when I'm just accepting the first one?
I guess this is just part and parcel of life. But two at once?
My goodness, its an overload.

One by one I watch them go. Tears roll and people say I'm being selfish.
But I can't say goodbye with a wide smile. Am I in the wrong?
Maybe so.

Two at once.
Its really unfair.

And what hurts the most is that I want to treasure and spent the fullest with them before they leave but they think otherwise.
They rather distant themselves away from me so that it wouldn't hurt so much when they leave. That way they think they are helping me cause they love me.
But for that, I thought otherwise.

You have no idea how hard is it to sleep through the pain.

How I wish this year wouldn't come to an end.

But.

But...

I promised them I'll be happy for them and take as if they said nothing.
Therefore, I shall try to keep it.

-

Sigh!
I asked mum/dad to get me a new earpiece for my birthday but they refused so because they already bought me an advance gift (A pair of roller blades) which cost a few hundreds >:(
And that thing has been lying in a corner of my room for a month plus.
Full of regrets now!
Why oh why did I ask for that??

Happy thing is Ash says he's bringing me out on monday to choose my birthday gift :)

Okay. I miss my boyf v much right now and can't wait for the love letters !

Your love for me is indefinite and I'll always love you.


I've learnt a lesson that caused a deep impact on me today.
I've hurt a number of people today and I'm sincerely sorry.
I don't know why I cried after thinking about how much Pq has done for me and the way he showered all his love on me. Maybe cause I was rly touched.
I don't know why I cried after thinking how stupid I was to hurt soulmate (Afiqah).

EH WTH I MUST LEARN TO BE LESS SENSITIVE !

But I'm glad she forgave me and I hope she doesn't repeat ( ... ) .


Today..

Today will be the day when I start to treasure my loved ones EVEN MORE.

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Pictures :

Qianni and Farah again :)


During cca with Pq. Love him la! :)


Btw, I found _ in school today :) Its actually a notebook -.-
A lil shopping on friday with Pq if there's time :)
Lover, I hope you'll think about what I said.
And don't be angry alr la Wangshi! Hahahahaha.